The last year or so has been quite easily the most difficult in my life. (I guess my very first year was a tricky one, too (lots of crying!), but I don’t remember much about that.) There have been lots of bad decisions, lots of bad things that just sort of happened, lots of bad luck. I was forced to recognize things about myself and how I did things that needed to change if Idea Market was going to survive. The good news is that I have learned at least a few things from all this and I’ll share those in future blogs.
There’s a place between failure and learning, though, and for me it was a time of shame, depression and loneliness. It’s hard to admit that you screwed up and let people down and it’s equally hard to face those people afterwards. OK, where am I going with this, other than trying to make you feel sorry for me? I’m not really sure – hang on…
Yesterday I had a meeting with a client who had just brought in a new person that would likely be my new primary contact on the project. Oh, and it just happens to be one of the people that I failed the most with and have been avoiding ever since. Perfect. After the initial reaction of pure dread, I knew I had two options:
1. I could maintain this weird barrier between us based on my past mistakes and carry it forward onto the current project.
2. I could move past that and recognize that this was a new thing and that I wouldn’t make the same mistakes I had made before. Besides, this person was actually really good to work with and I really liked her on a personal basis.
Obviously, I went with option 2. We had a really good meeting and I’m confident the project will go very well. I’ll do things differently this time and I know she’ll keep me accountable. And I’ll report back here when it’s all done – promise. Most importantly, though, it forced me to emerge from my hole, face the light and start moving forward. Exactly what I needed.
I have so much more to say about failure and lessons and the graciousness of good people, but I really should be working on this client’s sitemap now…







